Shane Ash

Chaos..

It is something that I am learning to live in…not just tolerate, wait until it is over, hide until it passes, ignore in hope it will somehow unwind its self…but to embrace, enjoy, to want.

I am tired of the same expectations…the explainable. My heart wants more…more of what I find in the midst of the tension…the chaos.

It is in the panic of the soul that I get disrupted…disturbed from what is easy, normal, me.

It is in the tension and chaos that I am forced to recognize that I am not in control…nor do I want to be in control.

I find God who desires that I depend on him…who offers rest, resources, and reason.